I just saw the movie The Family Stone. And decided I am never EVER EVER going to meet Paul's family. Like omg.

The end.

lol

OMG. 

Can't sleep.

I think our A/C is malfunctioning.

It was off...so I turned it on. And it's really loud anyways...but this was ridiculous. AND it wasn't getting any cooler. So I turned it back off. And now it's really hot.

I actually went to sleep. At like 9:45. Then I woke up an hour later. And I haven't been able to get back to sleep omfg.

ARRRGGGGGGHHHHHHH.

Wow. Today was...whooooo. Exhausting. But I am SO happy and SO excited and whooo! GO COCKS!!! lol!

We finished the pregame show. That was huge in itself...the Go Carolina! is easy enough routine, and ALL of the marching is simple. Then we go into the fight song, which is somewhat challenging flag work, but we stand still. And I can do it really well as long as my flag doesn't try and strangle me or twist around my hands in the pop-drop-stops. Then America the Beautiful....its all marching, no real routine. Except for position changes that are sometimes hard to remember. Then something called the grid? I dunno, we don't do anything during that. Then Go Carolina! again - we march to our spots for Cocky's - which is the BEST FREAKING PART OF THE WHOLE SHOW!!!!! We get to do the cocky's dance routine with POM POMS liek ooooommmgggg. It is SOO much fun!!! Then the rest is whatever...we march to the end spot and do the fight song again with the Coquettes and the band makes a tunnel for the football players, and then its over. But overall the effect is amazing and the show looks GREAT and i can't wait til next saturday :)

So I'm tired of people bugging me and pestering me and inquiring with great detail about "my guy" ..... and then giving me crap for it. NEWS FLASH: I don't care if you approve or not! It's MY LIFE. And I trust my own instincts and decisions beyond anyone elses. If you can't accept that, then you need to just back off and worry about yourself.

So college life is a lot of fun! Yeah def. cant wait for classes to start.

The end!

Good night!

<3

Dear world,

Today was good.

My hair is fixed.

I have a new screen name. It is - sincerestlyme

This one's for real!

Sincerely,

Me

Reasons why I hate Bike Week:

1. The noise.

2. I can't cross the street where I work to get to the mini-mart to buy my usual yoghurt and yoohoo.

3. The noise.

4. The cops are cracking down like WOAH on the speeders. Which means I have to drive the speed limit on the way to work. BOOOOOOO.

5. I had to sit on 707, literally in park, for THIRTY MINUTES between 10:25 and 10:55pm because the firetruck had to block off a motorcycle wreck and they were unable to just let us go around.

6. THE FREAKING NOISE.

And this is just the beginning! Yippee.....

So AP English exam wasn't as horrible as I had imagined it would be. Loads easier than last year...I got to write about The Little Prince! Once again, Little Prince saved my life! =P

After we left, me and C. went to have lunch at McAllisters. No spuds, guys. But it was just us, and it was cool because we FINALLY got to talk, and although (as usual) we hit some awkward conversations, it wasn't tooooo awkward like usual, so it  was cool. I ranted some more, got some more stuff off my chest, listened to him talk about stuff. It was a refreshing change. 

Afterwards I went to BAM and asked for an application, but they told me I had to do it online. More about that in a bit...I also bought three books. Three. The first I found was a Tolkien, the Silmarillion or whatever. It looked cool and I need to brush up on my history so I don't get confused when I read my fanfic. =P After that, I went to the romance section, pondered between the Highlander books, changed my mind, and got a cool looking book called "Once Upon a Winter's Night." Some romantic fairy tale...yay! After that, I headed over to the crazy-people section, found M.'s ADD book (and cheered! *highfive*). And then I saw it. The two most BEAUTIFUL words in the entire world, in all caps and large print splattered across the front of a book. You know what it said?


DON'T 
PANIC!

It was an orgasmic moment. I tooootally flipped out. And bought it! XD 

After this monumental moment, I went to work and tried to fill out the online application. Thats right...TRIED. The job is perfect...I'm 17 so I wouldn't be allowed to work a register, but I would sort books, arrange shelves, dust shelves (lol), unload the truck every Friday and Saturday, etc. etc. Its PERFECT. Exactly everything I did at the FMS library for Service Learning. I would love a job like that. Unfortunately, I can't apply. I guess they want to weed out the stupid people from applying. The lady told me to fill out the application online. Only problem...THERE ISNT ONE. Not unless the store is specifically hiring for the specific job you want. And they weren't. Which is bullcrap, because the people at BAM cheered when I told them I would love the job (they are severly shorthanded or something great like that). So I called the lady and explained this to her. But all she said to me was to apply for the Sales Associate and when they saw I was 17 they would understand what I was trying to do. So I fill out the general "hey you aren't offering my position so i'll just hang out and chill til you do" application...and they don't ask for my age. Or birthdate. And there is no such position as "Sales Associate". WTF mate? I am SOOO confused. I'll have to go back to BAM tomorrow and ask them wtf i'm supposed to do and I'll look like an idiot and they'll be thinking the whole time "Uh-oh, she didn't pass the intelligence test required to work at a highly intellectual place like a book store. Couldn't even find the application. Tsk-tsk. No job for her."

=(

"I've got a jar of diiiiirt."

DON'T PANIC!!! HAHAHAHAHA

Night yo!

Haha I just looked at my pic and found it ironic. M! I need to borrow your movie XD

I apply my personality in a paste.

So my hair is red. Pretty awesome.

Can't wait until tomorrow! Band looks great! I have my own personal coffin! FINALLY peforming our whole show! My costume ROCKS!!!



I want an oboe.

 

Goo Goo Dolls - Without You Here Lyrics

Your love's a gathered storm 
I chased across the sky
A moment in your arms became the reason why
And you're still the only light that fills the emptiness
The only one I need until my dying breath
And I would give you everything just to
Feel your open arms.
And I'm not sure I believe anything I feel
And now, now that you're near
There's nothing more without you 
Without you here
And I'm trying to believe
In things that I don't know
The turning of the world
The color of your soul
That love could kill the pain
Truth is never vain
It turns strangers into lovers
And enemies to brothers
Just say you understand
I never had this planned.
And now, now that you're near
There's nothing more without you 
Without you here
Without you here
There's nothing more without you 
Without you here
My head lies to my heart 
And my heart it still believes
It seems the ones who love us are the ones
That we deceive.
But you're changing everything
You're changing everything in me
And now, now that you're near 
There's nothing more without you 
Without you here

One last pointless and meaningless update...

My computer screen just twitched like mad, which means it was getting interference from my cell phone which is sitting on the desk.....but nothing happened on the cell. No call, no text or anything.

That was so weird.

It's amazing how this song makes me feel better and worse at the same time. o_O

Happiness at work...walking in and recieving a HUGE bear hug from the guy who is at least a foot taller than I... it made my whole night. And then running drivethrough pretty much alone, with him...OMG HE DOESNT HAVE A KID. So...not off limits? I mean, not as off limits? I really really like him. ^_^ And today he was just standing in the back where I was, just watching me take the money and stuff, and told me I smiled a lot (teehee if only he knew) and that I did a good job and it made me really happy. ^_^

And I do like the one person. The person that stuff is actually allowed and possible. Buuut, he probably isn't that into me like that after what happend (I wish I weren't so stupid) and I don't really care if it's weird because that isn't what the most important thing is, but thoughts of the past might hamper this just a bit. ^_^

My stupidity is my downfall.

So the confidence thing was better today. Except for when we had to do new stands tunes and I can't conduct to a song when I don't know how it sounds and some people that I really respect have a way of making me feel like dirt. Smaller and lower than dirt. And then it was shattered. Sigh. There's always tomorrow to start from square one again.

w00t.

Party wednesday! And new bathing suit. And apparently I had to up a size in the upper department lololol because apparently walmart does not sell bathing suits for normal sized people.

Omg ten million have told me "be careful, don't do dumb things, don't get all stupid and just be careful" about random guy. Which is actually kind of funny because I have a history of being dumb...for the opposite reasons. I don't think I've ever actively chased after any guy, I've usually ran away or hid from there. Besides, this guy is old and stuff. No chance of anything. ^_^

Even though he is really awesome. And cute. And smiley. And fun to flirt with. A LOT. And just really really really...ahhhhh. I want to stick him in a glass jar and show him to people. ^_^

/obsession

Mmmmm life. Tastes like rotten yogurt at the current point in time.

So the one person who bothered telling me anything...and I freaked out and got mad and left and stuff? Yeah, that wasn't cool. And I'm still mad. And sad. And have every idea that I'm going to be doing looooots of avoiding on Monday. And pushups. Lots of pushups. And endurance training. Self-punishment ftw!

And I did lie after all. I do like him. Like really a lot x a lot more. But it's a pretty dangerous position to be in. Because of the particular relationship we have, it's practically his job to tell me when I'm doing stuff wrong and beat me down for it. And it does kind of hurt when he yells out me for stuff. Yup. Baaaaaaadunhealthynotgoodshouldstopdontwanna. Luckily for everyone else, it's improved what I do tenfold, AND more often. I'm definitely earning brownie points (and hopefully a raise sometime soon). The extra hours are killing me, though. The whole age thing and gf thing don't make things any easier, either. But like today, I went right after church, and he saw me pull up and park and just walked over with this huge smile on his face (and he is SO cute) and then actually locked me out, but then we talked and stuff, and laughed together about stuff and he has such a nice laugh ^_^ And just playing around is fun. Its just when stuff gets busy and we're both stressed and then its not so fun.

Wooohooo long post about lots of unimportant stuff that nobody really cares about anyways. I missed LJ ^___^

So...I couldn't help myself. I feel so out of the loop on everything, and deep down I really do miss being able to type stuff out and use a journal and all that jazz, because I suck at the whole pen-and-paper. I just cant keep it up. Because I fail. No matter. And you know...I think almost every single person makes this pledge, but I promise I will keep drama to a minimum in this here journal, just because.

So yes! Life. It goes. Its summer...so not a whole lot of anything. Hehe.

OHMYGOD. I'm a senior! (I just HAD to say that ^_^) Senior pics! I actually liked them. Not the taking of, but the final result was not as horrible as I imagined. I was shocked.

Band? Its going ok so far. Not too many details there. If you're in band...you'll see. If you're not...weeell you probably dont really care. =)

Boys? Nonexistant. Hehe. Well, for the most part. I mean, they exist, but not like THAT. Except for one exception. But he's too old and is now one of my boss's (off limits a LOT) and has a girlfriend of 11 years. AHEM.

So I think that is sufficient enough for an entry. You guys...PLEASE refriend me. So that there really is a point to me recreating an LJ.

I miss LJ. So sue me.

=)